Pusat Jagaan Beribuan Kasih^^

On Christmas night we go to the Pusat Jagaan Beribuan Kasih in Kajang...it is a care center for anyone that was abandoned or simply no where to go, from old to young....UBF is planning to have a special christmas with this bunch of people....of course first I was scared to approach them...but then what the hell, just do it hehe^^

Thanks to the bunch of friendly kids that make me feel accepted there, I was their friend and they are mine....I met a girl named Nicole...she was only 15 when she was put there a few weeks ago by her parent...but I found that she never hated her life or blaming everything or think the world is no good, instead she have a dream...a dream of becoming a cook...she a special cook with creative talent...she can make a meat ball using small piece of meat, bread n milk(brilliant n creative....I hope i can learn her cooking)....she told me a lot of story that most people here experienced brutality and harshness of life...well long story so no need say too much(I also very lazy hehe^^)

There are one moment where she wrote her thank you notes to Sean(I happen to peep haha)....she wrote:" Thank you for giving this poor kids a very happy christmas and thank you for making me happy for the day." I was so touched by her words....i am speechless....I understand that they don't need our money donation or sponsor...instead what they truly need is our love, our care n our encouragement...it is truly simple but most of us will always forget that...what they desire is not all those paper given by people to them but instead their connection to society...that their heart desire....I will never forget tonight where Nicole n all the kids and old folks there have lighten my heart...my fire for compasion....nobody is born good or bad, it is just who u choose to be....

I will always remember the moment where I passed the christmas present to a little kid of 7 years old...he was closing his eyes...but when I touched n presented the present to him...I make a connection...he look me straight into my eyes n say:"Merry Christmas!" I was so touched that I hug him and say Merry Christmas to him....in my heart I was wishing all of them at the center to be happy always n to have their dreams come true....if I ever have chance to go there again...no matter UBF activity, my own accord, friends activities, my transport....whatever the reason I will revisit there whenever I have the chance...because I will never forget the place that lit up my heart....thank you so much...Pusat Jagaan Beribuan Kasih!!!

I will come back n I will try my best to lit up other people heart just like how u lit up heart....let us do this together n in the end we will light up the world!!!!

Together

"When we are together, we are family"

I like this statement from movie 2012 so much....when we are together, we are one big family no matter who are with....family, friends, organization, etc...so we should all just appreciate the time that we will spend with one another before it gone....enjoy every moment with family n friends...u never know when is the last time we are together....so cherish what u have n enjoy your life...^^

认识自己

你是谁？我不知道要如何答这个问题...发现我们所认识的自己都不是真正的自己，只是朋友告诉我们的自己，可是我很多时候都是会把最好的一面表现在大家面前而把不好的一面盖起来...可是学佛却要认识真正的自己...有多少人能够接受自己是一个不完美的人，我也不是一个很完美的人，我也有我的弱点，我的习惯，我不好的一面，不好的想法...
通明师父说：“只要认识到自己，就必须要接受自己是一个这样的人，只有接受才会改变！”

所以一定要认识自己，接受，改变，然后放下....学佛就是要我们变成一个更好更快乐的人，就佛陀一样....佛法其实不难，因为它就是生活嘛！！可是我们毕竟是一个凡人，也会有陷入困难或难关的，我们有我们的执著，所以法侣是一个帮助我们度过难关，帮我们变成好的人...可以完全接受我们，真心诚意帮助我们的人....然后当我们成功改变自己的时候，就是我们去帮助别人的时候了！

一个朋友说过：“只有先把自己心中的那盏灯照亮，才能照亮别人心中的那盏灯！”

只有帮助自己的人，才能够帮助别人....可是不要小看别人给你的小小的灯，因为那都是给我们力量去面对与成长的最重要的....所以请打开我们的心房，让别人的灯光可以照亮我们的心，而我们也把最真诚的心来照亮别人的心房！！

这是我在刚刚结束的年度生活营所启发到的一些小小分享，愿这个分享能够延续大家心中的那盏灯，那盏可以照亮一切的灯！

Hoeh Beng Temple Trip

Today I went to Hoeh Beng Temple with UBF to visit Reverend Chuan Wen...the trip is very inspiring for me...the reverend share that learning Buddhism is not only practice by ourself but it is best to practice it in people...we will never learn of our strength and weakness if we did not interact with people...I found that it is very true...I learn a lot when I was interacting with groups...only by interaction that I was be able to learn that I still have a lot of problems and habits that should be change...for example I learn that I will be unhappy or sometime angry when others cannot achieve what I anticipated...I tend blame others for their imcopetance or weakness but I forget that the one that have problem is me...and me alone...only through interaction with people that I understand I am not so perfect as my heart will go up and down when interacting with outside world...its good that we have iniative to learn Buddhism by ourself...but it also important to go outside to meet people....it not only can it helps you to realise your strenght and weakness...but also present a chance for sharing of Dhamma to others...only through people that we will able to help others...to share and help whenever needed...also it give us opportunity to train our heart...just like Reverend said before:" Only through interaction with people that we will be able to practice and train our heart to be more and more like Buddha."

So enjoy interaction with people....share whatever you can...give a helping hand whenever the chances appear to you...train your heart and learn to change your habits....only through this that we can be closer to the Buddha....go down the path of a boddhisatta...you will never regret it....I know I won't regret whenever I can share Dhamma or my experience and give a helping hand to others....I know that I still lacks a lots compared to the Buddha...so lets us walk this road together kalyana mitra...let us learn and grow together!!! ^^

Why???

Why everyone has different thought n opinion?? Why they never listen to others?? Why they have to force their thoughts against other?? Why?? Why? Why?

Most importantly why the Dhamma is not hard to understand by others, but few are able to practice it?? Is it so hard?? Would that means that Dhamma had not gone into ur heart?? I noe most of us has great understanding of Dhamma but is it so hard to practice it in our daily life??

Wahaha....I summarize all my fustration n question in my mind into simple words....I think most people will not understand(not so good in writing)....haha..^^

PS: Sorry Raymond, another post that u won't understand again...hehe^^

一时的感动！

今天的静坐班有点不一样，分享了学长格成的一篇文章，写了他从中学到他遇到佛学会的一些经历....心中对这篇文章有一点的感触....它让我想起了以前第一次接触佛学会的感觉....该谢谢我的一个学长 Kim Wee 给了我一个机会去接触佛学会....当时一踏出房门决定没想到就将会改写我在Uniten的一生.....当时只是单纯的就去了佛学班...当时那里我没有朋友，可是个个像认识的，搞到我不敢做什么，那时Jeffrey就来和我聊天，让我不会在那里呆呆的^^ 接着看到传芳一进来就拜佛，那时只是看着他，不敢问他在做什么....那时就是那么的单纯，对每一件事都感到很新鲜，想知道这，向学习那，就是什么都想要知道.....那天佛学班就只记得一句话：“学佛就是要让我们的生活变得更快乐！” 我就已经认定这就是我要的，我要知道佛教是什么？什么才能快乐？那天就因为我的一个决定让我在佛学会里一直呆下去的动力....^^

今天晚上让我再想起了我当初为什么要学佛....很多时候我们都会因为做多了，懂多了，就会忘记了当初的一颗单纯的心....所以才会没有了动力，没有了感动.....可能最重要的是还是一颗心，心麻木了就会没有了动力，也很难感动了，所以最重要的记得我们当初学佛的心呀！！想想自己也在这个道路上走了蛮长一段时间，从一直不断学习到付出做理事到现在退休变普通会员（hehe^^) 心里的成长也一直改变，从想知道更多到学习付出到现在想要帮助别人...其实现在才知道想帮助别人是很有挑战性的，分享就变成很重要了，可是虽然能够随时随机分享及布施，但是还是不能在大众面前分享....害怕吧....怕误导大众也怕自己没有这个能力....看来我还需多多努力呢！！

Haiz.....

不知怎么越看就越不高兴.....可能以为心中是放下了....但其实还是很在意的.....知道自己不应有这么样的想法，也知道该把它放下.....可是就是不能....haiz....人的心就是那么的难以控制，以为自己已能够放下了，但事实证明我还差得很远呢！！嘴里说没关系，但心里却不是这样想，心中还是很放不下呀！

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Just now I just read about a meaningful story....quoted from yee mun blog....ah sum i know u wont angry bout sharing this story in my blog de....hehe^^

Once upon a time there was this girl who had four boyfriends.


She loved the 4th boyfriend the most and adorned him with rich robes and treated him to the finest ofdelicacies. She gave him nothing but the very best.


She also loved the 3rd boyfriend very much and was always showing him off to neighboring kingdoms. However, she feared that one day he would leave her for another.


She also loved her 2nd boyfriend. He was her confidant and was always kind, considerate and patient with her. Whenever this girl faced a problem, she could confide in him, and he would help her get through the difficult times.


The girls 1st boyfriend was a very loyal partner and had made great contributions in maintaining her wealth and kingdom. However, she did not love the first boyfriend. Although he loved her deeply, she hardly took notice of him!


One day, the girl fell ill and she knew her time was short. She thought of her luxurious life and wondered, I now have four boyfriends with me, but when I die, I'll be all alone."


Thus, she asked the 4th boyfriend, "I loved you the most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?"


"No way!", replied the 4th boyfriend, and he walked away without another word.


His answer cut like a sharp knife right into her heart.


The sad girl then asked the 3rd boyfriend, "I loved you all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?"


"No!", replied the 3rd boyfriend. "Life is too good! When you die, I'm going to marry someone else!"


Her heart sank and turned cold.


She then asked the 2nd boyfriend, "I have always turned to you for help and you've always been there for me. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?"


"I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!", replied the 2nd boyfriend. "At the very most, I can only walk with you to your grave."


His answer struck her like a bolt of lightning, and the girl was devastated..


Then a voice called out: "I'll go with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go.."


The girl looked up, and there was her first boyfriend. He was very skinny as he suffered from malnutrition and neglect.


Greatly grieved, the girl said, "I should have taken much better care of you when I had the chance!"


In truth, you have 4 boyfriend's in your lives:

Your 4th boyfriend is your body. No matter how much time and effort you lavish in making it look good, it will leave you when you die.


Your 3rd boyfriend is your possessions, status and wealth. When you die, it will all go to others.


Your 2nd boyfriend is your family and friends. No matter how much they have been there for you, the furthest they can stay by you is up to the grave.


And your 1st boyfriend is your Soul. Often neglected in pursuit of wealth, power and pleasures of the world.


However, your Soul is the only thing that will follow you where ever you go. Cultivate, strengthen and cherish it now, for it is the only part of you that will follow you to the throne of God and continue with you throughout Eternity.

Most of us is just like in the story...we all care for ourselves the most...we wanted to look pretty in front of people, close our weakness and show our nice and cool self up...just like with the 4th boyfriend....of course then our most valuable stuff...money, laptop, hand phone...etc....like the third boyfriend....then the most that we interacted is often our family and friends....the one closest to us.... they bring joy and sorrow to us in our everyday life....they let us feel warm but sometime feel cold.....that is the excitement of life....it can be unpredictable and it usually wont go our way....but always we neglected our soul.....our heart and mind....we often find sensual pleasure to filled our heart and mind but often forget to purify our mind....juz like yee mun say:"only the soul follow us when we die, so what are u doing now??? step up and pray now!!"

well in buddhism we should know that nothing can follow us to death except for what we done in the past that determine how we are going to be in the future.....so juz like my friend yee mun say step up and do it NOW!!! no more next time as we all don know if we can live through today....so just help anyone or anything when u have the chance....don hesistate....do it NOW before it is too late....don worry coz we are learning....so let us learn together and spread the joy and happiness of the dhamma around......do our best and believe that u will be rewarded....^^

等

很久没有等人的感觉了.....等的时候可以让自己静下来，可以让心变平静....今天刚好有这个机会....平时生活都是忙忙碌碌的过.....心没有几何可以停下来的，天天都有东西在想，在忙，assignment 还没交，lab report还没打，test还没读，还要开会，还要做project....就连睡觉时都没有停止过......从早到晚都很难有一刻宁静.....甚至在等人的时候都会争取时间，读书呀，做功课呀......大多数的人就这样过他们的一生.....忙碌的一生.....心几乎都没有停止过....很多东西挂碍，不能放下....很难专注于现在所要做的事.....所以让心有一刻宁静是很重要的，至少有一小段时间可以放松，可以停下来观察自己和周围，往往会发现一些以前所忽略或很少注意到的东西....加油吧！！让心能有机会宁静.....慢慢看到我所忽略过的一切.......努力^^
这是今天在等人的时候的一个小小启示，愿与大家分享，一起加油努力吧！！hehe^^

Memorable Moment

Last week I experienced something special. I follow my nice housemate to fetch reverand to Serdang and Carol and Yen Xin back to Cheras....after putting reverand at UPM buddhist house in Serdang.....we went to play on the playground opposite the buddhist house under the urge from Kheng Hiong....at first we are very happy to play and to relive our youthful moment that we forgoten so long ago....at least I am....^^


Yeah!!!


see how happy we are^^


even cheok ee cant wait to play^^

Although this is a special experience....but because of human ignorance....the happy moment became tragedy......watch...







It become a full wave photographing war....haiz....sorry cheok ee....cant help u though....it then turn into handphone snatching event when we at kheng hiong car.....haiz....:(

Thing turn out like this but anyway this is a memorable moment for me and I hope all of u are too.....well they r my friends.....this is why I choose to learn Buddhism....because I get to meet a lot of friends wit different different personality.....a bit sort sort and playful sometime....but they r good friends nonetheless.....supportive and caring.....they always inspire me whenever i least expected it....thank you my kalyana mitra...^^

心声

想当带动员一次，一次也好我也满足了...可是往往事与愿反，到现在还是无法如愿...有时不经义会想，我是不是没有资格或能力承担带动员，我不知道....我不敢将我的这个小小心声告诉任何人，因为我知道他们一定会说安慰和鼓励的话，所以我真的不敢说出来...haiz...这样是不是变得好像违反佛陀的教法吧，因为一直想做带动员，心中是不是起了烦恼了....可是我心中好想喔，一次也好...不过也可能没有机会了...可能自己没有这个能耐所以才会没有人选做带动员，我也知道自己不够能力去教导别人，误人误己就不好咯...但是想到以前被学长启发，自己也希望能够帮助其他人...是不是自己想太多了....人心真的好复杂喔！！！

...........

最近有位朋友一直找我谈他和她的故事...当然很开心他那么的相信我...愿意听我给他的建议....hehe...可是我已很久没有他的这种感觉了....自从我和她的故事没有结果以后，法侣们叫我别等了，找新的吧...可是自从她以后，很少再有人是让我心动了...所以我有时和他分享时，心中都想再一次有和他一样的感觉....不知我能不能再一次的心动呢？

Shocking!!!

The news come to me so sudden it like a shock to me...although I din hang out wit u much...but thanks for being my fren....today is a big shock to me n everybody...the usual laughter n chatting have been replaced by our sadness....life is so unpredictable....once u think u r alright but another moment u r gone forever...this is life where we will never know when death will strike us....it accompany us everyday...every moment....until it strike with the moment u least expected....so r we ready??? Are me ready??? So we have to cherish everyone we have by our side right...cherish every moment with them....as u will never know when death is here for u or ur fren....but at least my fren will b living in my heart forever....

I will share this merits that I acquired during meditation with u my fren Gary....wish u will be happy n free of suffering....

U always a good fren to me....I will cherish ur memory in my heart always....thank you for being my fren....

RIP Gary....u will always live in our heart forever...!!!

播种的人

Last week dhamma class is very interesting....although the story of the Buddha I already hear for the past three years dy....know most the story....then Bro.Yik Hwa introduce us a few song during hymns sharing section....one particular song really make me wonder...the song is "播种的人" lyric by Bro.Chuan Fang....most of us have benefited from our senior when we are a fresh junior in university....they help, nurture and make us grow up....well thanks to them I am what I am now...although many people did not see it...but I know I have change a lot during my time at UBF...thanks to their effort to put a seed in me(haha the sentences like something wrong...but the meaning is there^^) now I feel that I should be the one that inherit what my senior had done in the past for me...I will become the one that will plant seed into every one heart....although it is difficult...but it is meaningful and this is what I can do to repay their guidance and effort towards me.....gambateh neh!!!

真的是这样吗？？

习惯真的那么难改吗？最近看到的都是习惯....说了也没用...习惯还是死性不改....造成了很多人麻烦。学佛的不是说不要造成别人的麻烦，别人的嗔心吗？那为什么说了也等于白说，听也没有到心里去...看到这样的人不知该如何是好...haiz...自己的能力还是那么有限...不过在我看来习惯不是不能改，只是视乎你有没有去了解自己的问题，去下决心去改，习惯一定能改的，这是我一直以来的信念。忠言逆耳，只是要知道别人不是想说你而是想你变得更好，一定是自己有问题别人才会说你的，所以不介意别人所说，但一定要去审查自己，只有自己认定有问题才会有能力去改....说别人我也有很多习惯需要去改...只是最近又一个活生生的例子在我眼前而已....就像想要告诉我一定要改掉自己的不好习惯...一定能....让我们一起加油吧！！！:)

Just Thinking!!!

Lately something happened to my sister that make me thinking...She gt an industrial training that suppose to last for 3 months....but the company gt bankrupt n she was jobless...so I think that our life will not always b a smooth road ahead...there will b thorn along the way...so what should we do when it happen to us...blame it all on bad karma???? I don't think so....but yes our yesterday choice has taken its consequences today...i think the most important thing is what we do today to change our life...this is also a choice today that we must take right??? Heard a friend sad once:" What we do yesterday is what make us today...but what we do today is what make us tomorrow!!" So the most important thing is what u do today...oso our attitude towards the situation can affect the choices that we will make...well different people has different attitude though...so just think carefully which attitude u wan to face the difficulty in life...if u choose correctly...then ur life will not be so suffering ler...so choose wisely....hehe....^^

Sienz~~

经过了一星期的 "Industrial Training" 以后，所得的只有 "sien" 这个字眼可以形容。所做的都是一些不知目的，没有目标的工作，所以不知自己为什么要这么做。在我最迷惘的时候，我的经理却和我说了一句话，让我对工作有新的看法，他说：“做工不是只是守着自己的岗位，要学东西就要多积极的去和其他同事学。” 他的简单一句话让我这个迷路羔羊得到了一盏明灯一样照亮了我那时迷惑的心，真是太感谢我拥有一群很好的同事。他让我明白到世界是很现实的，你要什么都需要自己积极的去做，去问人才能够学到东西的。当然生活也是如此，很多人都只是知道守在自己的生活世界里面，却很少会去理会别人的生活的，可是这样我们就只能被绑在自己的世界里面，而忽略了很多学习的机会，这岂不是很可惜吗？只要我们能够踏出第一步，能帮忙的就帮忙，过程中我们不是都可以学到很多宝贵的经验吗？只有我们拥有这一份帮助别人的心意，我们永远都会很开心的过日子的。所以将我们的心打开，主动站出来，你会看到不一样的世界在等着你的！！让我们一起加油，一起把欢乐带给别人的世界里面去吧！！！^^

Time Of Sorrow? Time Of Joy?

Each time I think that the UCSI friends will leave on September....a kind of sadness filled my heart....but what will my reaction be when the time of real separation? Will I be cool? Will I cry? Will I do something stupid(hehe^^)? I don't know what will be when the time come....hope it never come....i need to to face it sooner or later....
But anyway, like my good friend Mr.Senz say:" Why think of the future when u have now?" I truly touched by his words....yes we will feel sad when our friends leave us eventually....but why think of the future that haven't come yet, but instead it make me appreciate the time I spend with them more....it just like each time I see them will always be the last time that I will see them...so I truly cherish the moment that I share with them now....laugh with them....play with them....chat with them....this is the moment that I will cherish forever in my heart....just like what the reverand said cherish the present moment....why think of the future when I still have NOW!!!!
Although they may change after the four years at UK....but I truly believe that our bonding through the Dhamma will never change....so 祝你们一路顺风，请相信自己所选择的路，加油吧!!!
So don't feel sad...lets cherish the time we have NOW!!!!
And for the future 请相信我们会有相逢的一天的!!!!!
So enjoy NOW and strive for the future....for the day we will gather once again!!
This is what I truly believe deep in my heart...always....always....

So enjoy NOW and strive for the future....for the day that we will gather again..!!!!

This is what I truly believe in my heart....always...always...